How can it be I didn't see, the lies and deceit you were telling me.? I loved you hard and I loved you deep leaving everything important to me.
I thought you would be the best thing that ever happened to me. Tried my hardest did my best, only feeling unloved and oppressed. Now I see it wasn't me just can't understand the way you treated me. You took my mind, you took my heart you took my soul only so you could tare me apart. Leaving me with hurt and pain feeling failure guilt and shame. Doubting myself feeling hopeless wondering why I didn't notice? Feeling devastated and out of control its time for me to pick up the pieces and go. He was a narcissist and I didn't know..
Healing my hurt healing my pain ,trying to hide my failure and shame. I hold back the tears , pretend not to care, denying the truth even though its right there.I can't understand how can you be so cold and cruel to me? My mind can't solve the problems in front of me, Mistrust and lies consume me. There is no compassion no empathy always fighting and attacking me. Your words are killing me, I'm dying inside all a long you take their side. Making me doubt what I know is true, blaming myself limiting my beliefs, my chances of getting out just decreased.. I loved a narcissist and it almost killed me..