Healing my hurt healing my pain ,trying to hide my failure and shame. I hold back the tears , pretend not to care, denying the truth even though its right there.I can't understand how can you be so cold and cruel to me? My mind can't solve the problems in front of me, Mistrust and lies consume me. There is no compassion no empathy always fighting and attacking me. Your words are killing me, I'm dying inside all a long you take their side. Making me doubt what I know is true, blaming myself limiting my beliefs, my chances of getting out just decreased.. I loved a narcissist and it almost killed me..