stopping??????!!!!!! here is what i posted wed. nite on shoutlife......srry im so late posting it here, but i just havent had time.
i cant believe this......i wuz ACTUALLY ABLE 2 MAKE KIM HAPPY 2NITE @ yg!!!u kno how? rite after yg, during the closing song, i told her 'i THINK im ready 2 stop' & u shoulda seen the smile that came across her face......IT WUZ THE BIGGEST SMILE IVE SEEN ON NE-1 IN A LONG TIME!then she asked me what made me decided that & i rlly didnt kno what 2 say b/c part of it wuz b/c of the songs we sang 2nite & part of it wuz im just tired of bein' in pain all the time & she just hugged me & told me i could do it & then prayed & then we had this big discussion about how pretty she thinks i am & how pretty i DONT think i am & all that.....but i wuz actually able 2 make her smile, which is sumthing i NEVER thought id b able 2 do....in fact, im sure ive been more of a disappointment 2 her ovr the past few mo. than ne-thing but just 2 c that smile makes me feel so happy!
Re: stopping??????!!!!!! how are you doing?
-Alyssa
--- Being filled in the depths of your soul is only about the love of God... knowing Him... hearing His voice... believing that He's wild about you... dancing in His arms. -Angela Thomas
Re: stopping??????!!!!!! im doin' ok i guess....ive let kim down SOOOOOOO MANY TIMES tho, b/c its RLY diff. to stop....in fact, pastor mike, well were assuming it wuz pastor mike, told my dad about it...in fact, kim said that it prolly wuz him b/c she had a feeling he was gonna tell my parents soon, but she didnt wanna tell me that b/c she didnt think pastor mike would like that, & so its been rly diff.
I hope things continue to go well for you. I'll pray for ya!
-Alyssa
--- Being filled in the depths of your soul is only about the love of God... knowing Him... hearing His voice... believing that He's wild about you... dancing in His arms. -Angela Thomas
Re: stopping??????!!!!!! srry...i meant difficult..that wuz my fault 4 not spelling it out....things r RLY difficult rite now, but its now officially been 3WEEKS,2DAYZ 2DAY!!!!!--the LONGEST ive evr gone w/o it!!!!!!
but i can HONESTLY say that the 1thing thats RLY helping me stay stopped is the fact that kim is keeping me accountable.
Re: stopping??????!!!!!! thats good that you got somone to help. you. im sorry that you are going through that . im prayin for ya. pm me if you need to talk.
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Re: stopping??????!!!!!! i'm now in college and am in counseling here usually twice a week...the past couple of weeks its only been once a week, but for the past 3 now its been twice a week and i've been in counseling for about 4months now...i have been trying to stop, but it is really difficult..brent and kim told my parents last spring and so i automatically stopped because my parents said that if i didn't i couldn't go to college, so i stopped for like 5months but didn't deal with the problems that caused me to want to cut..so once i came here, about 2weeks into the semester, i started up again because of all the freedom i had..i didn't have to worry about body checks or anything like that because i'm 1 1/2 hours from home..the longest i've gone since i've been here is about a month..its now 6days since i last cut..i just wanna say thanks to everyone for being great friends.
