sheri67
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Play weak but get strong
I thought I had wasted my whole day on the computer ... but what I have just discovered in the last 30 minutes has quite blown me away. I didn't know that these forums existed and I am relieved. I feel like I have found some new friends.
I left my N just on 12 months ago. It took 2 years of working with my psychologist to get the courage up to say it was over. My motto in those 2 years: "play weak and get strong".
I was quite good for first 9 months, but the last 3 I have definitely regressed ... a lot to do with finidng out he has a new girlfriend who he is lavishing with gifts and wonderful overseas travel staying in luxury hotels. Of course she must think he is so wonderful: good looking, fantastic career, lots of money, good father, beautiful children, big boat, flashy car - why would anyone leave him?
People that I thought were friends started to spread rumours, "how could she leave such an amazing guy, she must be having an affair".
I will never recover fully, I will carry the scars forever.
I miss him so much - I find it so hard to remember the hard times - I have to ask my friends and counsellor to remind me of the bad times. Whey my counsellor read out the chronology of my relationship with this man for the last 10 years, my jaw dropped to the ground. It really was bad. But I loved him and I know he loved me - didn't he?
Thanks for listening, I feel thoroughly exhausted but so happy to be here.
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Oct/10/2009, 7:31 am
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